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30th-Jul-2020 08:11 pm - FIC MASTERLIST
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I started writing fanfiction back in 2004, and now I wonder why it took me that long. My favorite HP book is Half-Blood Prince and HP movie is Order of the Phoenix.

Here is a list of all the HP fanwork I've ever written. I've posted them on other sites as well; check out the links in the sidebar. If you want to keep up with my fics here on Livejournal, feel free to friend this journal.

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Gentle Reader,

This story begins in 2004, back in the heyday of the HP fandom.

aznwolfdoll and I were in an RP called Lost Generation. She had been active in the community for a year or so before I joined as Blaise Zabini in December of 2003. My version of Blaise was Italian and had a little sister with whom he was a tad obsessed. Within his first week in the community, the moderators tried to avoid the appearance of incest by suggesting Blaise forget about his sister and find a love interest at Hogwarts. That love interest was Marietta Edgecombe.

At first I was half-convinced Blaise was being foisted on a throwaway character who was only in the community as a plot device. When I discovered Marietta was an active character, I couldn’t fathom who would want to play her. But aznwolfdoll’s Marietta, like my Blaise, was human in a way that JK Rowling had never allowed in the books. She had quirks, whims, fears, a wonderful sense of humor, and a pet sugar glider named Jelly Bean. So aznwolfdoll and I seized the opportunity to give these characters, nay people, the chance to live in a magical world on the brink of war.

The ship between our Blaise and Marietta has survived the closing of Lost Generation, the disclosure that canon!Blaise is not Italian, the publication of the last book, the opening of the theme park, and the release of the last movie based on the last book. During that time, I have found in aznwolfdoll my best friend and my long-lost sister. It was never a specific moment or action that cemented our friendship, but periods of growing apart and growing together have helped define us as the two women we are today. I fully expect to continue as sisters into our futures with jobs, husbands and children until the very end.

The idea for this fic is a question we have often asked ourselves over the years: what would a Blaise and Marietta relationship have looked like in canon? I fear she and I have differing ideas in what we want for our characters, influenced by our own differing life experiences.

And so I began this fic with the same mindset that I began my very own journey into this fandom: Blaise and Marietta are simply two humans living in a vastly inhuman world, forced to make choices most 17-year-olds could never conceive.

This small piece is the epilogue to the long saga in my head, which a PhD dissertation is preventing me from writing. Someday I will find the energy and time to complete that fic in my head. Until then, I hope you enjoy this snippet as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Happy Birthday, dearest sister.

Jawy
April 2013


Title: Find Your Way Back
Characters: canon!Blaise Zabini, canon!Marietta Edgecombe
Rating: G-PG
Summary: It’s been hours since the battle at Hogwarts. Away from the wreckage, two students are left to grapple with their fates.
Disclaimer: If I owned this I'd be a billionaire living in Edinburgh instead of freezing my toes off in a dorm room in Virginia.
Notes: Post-DH, Can-Be-Epilogue-Compliant-If-You-Want-It-To-Be. Betaed and dedicated to aznwolfdoll.
Words: 2,487

I do not have an answer. I only know that knowledge is power, so I want to live, breathe, and continue learning before another megalomaniac wrests away the privilege. I do not have the finances or connections for any other way. He sees the answer written across my face. But the look on his face is expectant, as though he wants me to say something.Collapse )
5th-Nov-2012 03:43 pm - Lost Empires (3/3)
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Title: Lonely Empires
Characters: Albus Dumbledore, Tom Riddle
Rating: PG
Summary: Do you ever wish we were more than who we are?
Disclaimer: If I owned this I'd be a billionaire living in Edinburgh instead of toiling away in the Richmond humidity. You do the math.
Notes: Title and description are lyrics from the song “Before I Start Dreaming” by Anchor and Braille. This fic was inspired by a fill-in hbp LJ community prompt back in 2005. Originally, this fic was not supposed to include information from Deathly Hallows, but it's been so long that I think this story is still relevant. Much thanks to the lovely aznwolfdoll for betaing.
Words: 5,136

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5th-Nov-2012 03:29 pm - Lost Empires (2/3)
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P R E V I O U S L Y:

part 01


Title: Lonely Empires
Characters: Albus Dumbledore, Tom Riddle
Rating: PG
Summary: Do you ever wish we were more than who we are?
Disclaimer: If I owned this I'd be a billionaire living in Edinburgh instead of toiling away in the Richmond humidity. You do the math.
Notes: Title and description are lyrics from the song “Before I Start Dreaming” by Anchor and Braille. This fic was inspired by a fill-in hbp LJ community prompt back in 2005. Originally, this fic was not supposed to include information from Deathly Hallows, but it's been so long that I think this story is still relevant. Much thanks to the lovely aznwolfdoll for betaing.
Words: 5,136

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5th-Nov-2012 03:10 pm - Lonely Empires (1/3)
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Title: Lonely Empires
Characters: Albus Dumbledore, Tom Riddle
Rating: PG
Summary: Do you ever wish we were more than who we are?
Disclaimer: If I owned this I'd be a billionaire living in Edinburgh instead of toiling away in the Richmond humidity. You do the math.
Notes: Title and description are lyrics from the song “Before I Start Dreaming” by Anchor and Braille. This fic was inspired by a fill-in hbp LJ community prompt back in 2005. Originally, this fic was not supposed to include information from Deathly Hallows, but it's been so long that I think this story is still relevant. Much thanks to the lovely aznwolfdoll for betaing.
Words: 5,136

“Every malefactor, by attacking social rights, becomes on forfeit a rebel and a traitor to his country; by violating its laws he ceases to be a member of it; he even makes war upon it... Such an enemy is not a moral person, but merely a man.”
- Jean-Jacques Rosseau, Of The Social Contract

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13th-Oct-2012 11:08 pm - Halloween (Fanon!Blaise/Marietta, G)
just a girl in the world
Title: Halloween
Pairing: Fanon!Blaise/Marietta
Rating: G
Prompt: Pumpkins
Word Count: 94

“We have how many left to finish?”

Marietta huffed in exasperation and pushed a tendril of hair out of her face. "There are only six more left, Blaise: four at the doors, two for the dining room and two for the foyer."

Blaise stopped his wand and tried for diplomacy. "Tesoro, we barely have five guests coming to dinner-"

"-and one of them is Draco Malfoy," she finished with a pointed look as she returned to perfecting Snape’s hooked nose.

Silence reigned for a moment until Blaise muttered, "We’ll need twenty more pumpkins then."
24th-Dec-2007 02:42 am - Pilgrim's Prayer (3/4)
D/G b&w


P R E V I O U S L Y:

|| part 01 || part 02


Title: Pilgrim's Prayer (3/4)
Pairing: Draco/Ginny
Rating: PG
Summary: She would no longer need to marry Harry to feel as though she had found her place in the world. He found himself poor and despised at the ripe age of twenty-three, knowing that his best years were far behind him.
Disclaimer: Characters belong to JKR. This was just a gift.
Note: This was my fic for the dgficexchange, and a gift for talithan (who probably hates me for taking forever with this) She requested: Post-HBP, jealousy, and not too fluffy and not too angsty. Here's what my brain came up with.

Much thanks to esus for telling me that I was losing sight of my goal. Tesoro, you're the best.


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entrance to psychic in lobby
Uhm, I really have no idea what to say about this one. It's very unlike anything I've ever written in the Harry Potter fandom before, and it's very much in the same vein as Pilgrim's Prayer in that it's honest.

I remember that I started this a couple of years ago (!!!) because I'd promised vafizziks fic for answering something correctly in my journal. I think. I seriously can't remember anymore. But this definitely happened right before HBP came out so yeah, it was a while ago.

Well, I attempted one version, and when I got it betaed it turned out that I knew nothing of vineyards. I rewrote it, then cast it aside because I was sick of it. Then, out of nowhere, inspiration struck again and I started from scratch with a whole new plot. The plot didn't really have an ending until today. And that is why you're getting the fic now.

It involves fanon!Blaise. By that, I mean that Blaise is white and Italian, like he used to be in the good ole days. Also, this was written post-OotP, so HBP and DH never occurred. But I think that, as a post-war fic, you can pretty easily ignore the AUness.

All right, enough rambling.

Title: A State Where Everything's Passing
Pairing: Blaise/Hermione
Rating: G-PG
Warnings: post-OotP, so it's now considered AU. Blaise is white and Italian.
Summary: The gleam of her teeth, the pink of her dress against her skin, the dirt in her hair – all of it mirrors that life that he’d always associated with this house and this land. There is permanence to this moment, and suddenly Blaise knows.
Disclaimer: If I owned, I'd be a billionare living in Edinburgh.
Note: Semi-betaed in a past life (hey, it makes sense to me). Thanks to esus for beating me over the head about vineyards.
Words: 3,146

Before she would retire, his mother would always open his door and spare him a kiss on his forehead as she smoothed his hair back. He would shut his eyes tightly and feign sleep until that kiss, and then would dream of ivory halls and red skirts and his mother’s laughter. Those dreams are long lost, however.Collapse )
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This is a bit out-of-the-ordinary, but I've written crack!fic.

funny things about it: it's been sitting on my memory key for about a year now, it's Blaise/Ginny, it's a completely new writing style, and it's 10 pages long.

not-so-funny things about it: it's my first attempt at Blaise/Ginny, it's disturbingly G-rated, and it's a little strange.

then again, it's crack!fic, so who cares right? and it sort of made me grin, so maybe it'll work for you too?

Title: A Step-by-Step Successfully-Completed Seduction
Pairing: Blaise/Ginny, hints at Harry/Ginny
Rating: R for sex G
Warnings: COMPLETE AND UTTER CRACK!FLUFF. I must have been on a sugar-induced, Backstreet Boys-encouraged high.
Summary: It’s too bad that I can never let go of an idea.
Disclaimer: If I owned, I'd be a billionare living in Edinburgh, instead of freezing to death in a computer lab in New York. You do the math.
Note: Unbetaed.
Words: 3,383

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14th-Mar-2007 10:34 am - Pilgrim's Prayer (2/4)
D/G b&w


P R E V I O U S L Y:

|| part 01 ||


Title: Pilgrim's Prayer (2/4)
Pairing: Draco/Ginny
Rating: PG
Summary: She would no longer need to marry Harry to feel as though she had found her place in the world. He found himself poor and despised at the ripe age of twenty-three, knowing that his best years were far behind him.
Disclaimer: Characters belong to JKR. This was just a gift.
Note: This was my fic for the dgficexchange, and a gift for talithan (who probably hates me for taking forever with this) She requested: Post-HBP, jealousy, and not too fluffy and not too angsty. Here's what my brain came up with.

Much thanks to esus for her awesome beta-ing and detail-picking. I don't think my fics would ever be readable without her.

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